Ink It Out.
Is it wrong to promise someone something,and then break the promise to save yourself?
I feel like shoving people out of my life may be the only way to avoid making the same mistakes I've made in the past. Things could be different this time... they could be good. But should I really risk it all when the consequences of a possible bad ending are far more damaging than the reward of a good ending's pleasure would be? I've got more to lose than gain. So I'm snipping the string early and moving on with my life. I never wanted to be the person that hurt others and placed her own feelings first, but I'm tired of coming in last place; it has gotten me absolutely nowhere in life. I just want to put myself first once. I want to change my life and make sure my fresh start in college really is FRESH. And, in order to do that, I can't let high school mistakes threaten to sabotage it all.
On Tuesday, September 22, 2009 at 7:02 PM
Only Memories Fade, Love Remains The Same.
For awhile there, I thought all hope was lost. It sent me off the deep end and I very nearly lost my mind. I was freaking out, searching for answers, crying, and trying to find someone...anyone... who could fix it, someone who could tell me it was going to be okay. And when no one did, I felt as if I had died. And I hated the people I had depended on to tell me it'd be alright, because I felt as if they'd let me down by not knowing what to say.I should know by now not to lose my hope... I should know that my parents' love can survive anything. I've seen it pulled through the mud and taken to hell and back but still remain whole. This situation was so different though... that I couldn't help but think the results would be different as well.
But there they are, sitting out on the deck holding hands. She's laying her head on his shoulder and he's kissing her hair. Because, in the end, it will always be the two of them loving each other while they face the world with their hands clasped firmly together.
On Saturday, September 12, 2009 at 4:51 PM
Music Pumps Magic From My Fingertips.
I've written a LOT for my new "novel".There are only two chapters that are really COMPLETE though.
These two songs helped me:
(ps- I turned the miley song off before she broke it down into an r&b song hahaha.)
There's a lot more,
but I'll wait until the chapters are done for the whole playlist.
On Friday, September 11, 2009 at 4:39 PM
Swirling Colors And Twisted Dreams.
I'm working on a new story now.I swear it's going to save my life.
On Wednesday, September 2, 2009 at 7:20 PM
Let Go, Walk Away.
I mistake kindness for something more, far too easily. I become attached after assuming that I'm the only one receiving special treatment, when the treatment isn't special at all.I am apparently blind. It is extremely obvious how obnoxious I am now.
No wonder it is impossible for me to be loved.
On Tuesday, September 1, 2009 at 6:52 PM
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