I am losing my balance on this high wire; about to crash.
I hate liking him. I hate not being able to get over it.I hate that I agree when other people say he is no good,
and how I am convinced when they tell me I should stay away...far, far away.
I hate that I convince myself of the same thing, but I always allow my feelings to resurface again. It's impossible for so many reasons.
And so many bad things will come from it. Is a tiny bit of happiness worth wrecking my world?
I also hate how I always hope that he'll somehow morph back into the same person that he used to be; the one that I never even dreamed of having a chance with. I wish that I didn't have to keep shoving the thought of he's only trying to use you into the back of my head, because I'm always pondering the prospect of something more blossoming in the end.
I don't understand why I don't just give up on this.
On Tuesday, December 23, 2008 at 6:45 PM
Leave your thoughts here.
By title
I am losing my balance on this high wire; about to crash.
By month
September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 March 2011 June 2011 September 2011